31st December 2011

So its time to look back... this is becoming a good practice...I have been doing this for last four years...
One of my important goal was losing a few kilos and getting back to shape...I think I have done a fair job....although this December is trying to take everything away!

I wanted to visit home and so did I during the winter break!

I didn't had a coast to coast road trip but I drove to east coast with Rushaed..that was an awesome experience.

I haven't yet figured out whether I should do a PhD or start working....my interview with Cummins was nice but haven't heard anything from them yet...all of the PhD applications are submitted and now waiting to hear from the schools...

No luck with MANG!

Now whats for 2012? Umm..lets see

First of all, finish my MS as quickly as possible and start working/ PhD.

Second, MANG!!!

Third, keep working towards getting in shape

Four, working on the three UC projects that are currently under discussion

Five, learn a new language

Six, start a cooking blog

Seven, working on new business idea with Tareq

Eight, learn to play something

Just Before Going Back

One more day, then I will be on the way back home...after fifteen long months....Just thinking how is this fifteen months experience....In one sentence, it was awesome! Lets make a list of important things that I learned during my stay!

1. Booze, of course
2. Football...yeah the american one..though still don't know why its football
3. American work ethic...I think thats what make them top
4. Speak up/ sell yourself
5. Why need to plan long ahead....

Can't remember any other right now...will update when something else I can recall....

6. Embracing Diversity

It will take time

Now reading the biography of Steve Jobs....I have to say I am not that much impressed/ inspired reading this...there are certain aspects of Job's character that I do not like...but there are some important lessons that I have learned from it....

One most important thing is there is very little chance that something dramatic will happen in life and change your life....there goes on a lot behind the scene that you see in a successful person...you have to keep working towards the goal with sincerity and keep building your dream slowly...also to understand the big picture is very important...

I liked the analogy of winning battles and wars....being to much focused on winning small battle can cause lose the entire war!

I might read few more chapters before I return it to the library...lets see what surprises me!

Random Note to Self

1.
Why I am rushing so much...so desperate...is it that I am feeling running out of time??

Should not be like that....still half way to go...

2.
Stared reading Steve Job's biography....I do not expect a lot from this book but so far it seems interesting....A question just popped up while I was reading...why do we need to go to school...what is the purpose or how it help a person to live through his life?

শিরোনাম নাই

মিকা, খুব ঝামেলায় ফেলি দিলা...এখন কি করি?

Grad Life 6

I asked a question to one of my good friends and got this reply:

"I think you have to hope for the best and try. Nothing is guaranteed. We have to be patient and try for things that make us better and more knowledgeable. "

Seems this is the perfect advice for me right now. Just have to keep things pushing...lets see where it takes me..

I had the interview with Cummins today. Pretty satisfied the way it went. Lets see how they play the ball.

Grad Life 5

Just came back from Santosh's defense...liked the work...It was nice to see both the Ghias' proud of their student...

Pretty much sure that I want a research career, whether in industry or academia...I think thats where I belong.

Finally decided for the Universities that I am going to apply....It will be awesome if I can make into any of them.

And I need to learn more math...sometimes its really nauseating that I do not know enough math.

Update: Here goes the confession...my heart really wants me to pursue PhD

Bla bla bla

Living in a friendless city.....there are friends.....but they are friend friend....not like the folks that I used to have around me...sometimes life feels so miserable...

Once upon a time

Once upon a time I used to think all I need is a house full of books and a good internet connection....thats it....how stupid I was at that time !

Grad Life 4

Just curious, am I getting by grad school without doing too much work?

Re-doing your life!

Can you name ten things that you wish for, if you get to born again?...i was just walking when it came to my mind....lets see can I...

1. Wanna be a skinny dude.
2. Have long hair
3. Be a musician
4. Be with the girl from 7th grade
Umm....what else....
5. Really good at something
6. Be an extrovert
I cant think of any more write now....will come back and update the list when I have something ;-)

bla bla bla

So, the question was can you just pull the plug and stay disconnected with a indifference towards the world...the answer definitely is no, you can't.....the reason behind you are you is the connection with the grid....you suck it up all from the grid and now you think you can leave now because you don't need the grid anymore! don't be a stupid freeloader...pay things back when you can.....

bla bla bla

Its just not about only making money....if it was, I believe things would be so much easy. But unfortunately, there are stuffs that I want to take care of, besides making money ;-)

Grad Life 3

One important thing that I discovered recently about school is to succeed all you need is just hang in there. There will come times when you will feel broke, teared apart, but all you need is just keep pushing...keep doing what you are supposed to...do not back off....do not give up....

And another important update apart from school....its really tough to be with a girl who does not know Bangla :-(

there are millions of thought that pops up in your mind and you just can't share them because you fear they will be "Lost in Translation"

Grad life 2

Just as a short note of how far I have come across this 8 months, if the peak is 100, I was around 7-10 when I was done with BUET. And now it feels like 20. Still a long way to go, huh? But look at the bright side, I have almost doubled what I got in 5 years in just last 8 months. Pretty Steep!

Looks like coming to Cincinnati is a good decision so far ;-)

bla bla bla

Want to do so many things and like always, there is so little time :-(

অঞ্জন নীল

অঞ্জনের সাথে নীলকে গাইতে দেখলে এত ভালো লাগে ক্যান?

bla bla bla

alright, I have to admit at this point, life is becoming creepy....I am kind of exhausted, frustrated and above all, tired of pretending. Tired of everything. And don't know what to do.....from the outside, it looks so good...everything is so perfect...but really, I am dying.....it's so horrible inside....can't figure out what should I be doing right now....i think i need a break...break from everything...

journal0.01

1.
Everyone is looking for win; no one wants to settle for something less; That's what the rat race is!

2.
Things are becoming more monotonous then ever. There is really nothing to talk about. Need some change.

রিকশা

কতদিন রিকশায় চড়ি না; হঠাৎ করে খুব রিকশায় চড়তে ইচ্ছা হল।

Lie-detectors

Why is lie-detector if there is love between us?

What I want from life

Man is a social bitch. At least men and women from twenty first century are social bitch. Its the society that dictates how you should breathe, how you should sneeze, how you should date, have sex, blah blah blah. You are so wired by the fucking norms of society that you just become a social bitch. Its the society that literally puts a collar on your neck and treats you like its own dog.

Is there a way out? I am looking for one, let me know if you have already found one; it will save my day.

What are the things that you want from yourself? What are the things that you want from others for yourself?? Be honest with your answers!

I saw a friend wearing a t-shirt which says "1000 dreams". I just wonder can I name 10 separate dreams for myself; I think its tough. How pity my life is!

everything I want

Whats that everything I want? Can I name 10 things from everything all I want??? Can you?

Grad Life

Grad life is going well. It seems I really love being at school. All the mysterious stuffs are becoming more and more clear. The jargons are not jargon anymore, they are more to be the slangs that I use now and then.

I started going to the gym again. This time I am not going to let myself down. I already set up an appointment with my personal trainer. Looking forward for it. Lets see how it goes.

চিল্লাচিল্লি ১

যেটা ছিল না ছিল না, সেটা না পাওয়ায় থাক, সব পেলে নষ্ট জীবন.... আসলেই কি তাই, নাকি পাচ্ছি না বলেই যুক্তির গরুকে গাছে তুলে দিচ্ছি???

DIGITAL DISCONNECTION

Ok, this is the start of my some sort of pseudo-digital-disconnection. I really don't know how appropriate the term is, because I just signed off my facebook and yahoo.....I am still blogging, my cellphone and gmail are still on. And no to mention, I will keep posting photos to flickr. I was just too stuck with facebook and so decided to give myself a break. Also, there are somethings that are happening around me, which I am not so comfortable to talk about.

Last night, I was kind of thinking how things went for me for the last past years; and it seems that almost everything went well except a few stupid stuffs. But what if those stupid stuffs went in a better way? How different my life then would be?